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Three words. Month. From. Hell. October is one of those months you either love or hate. I'm saying this quite unbiasedly too; yes, October has Thanksgiving (for us Canadians), Halloween and My Birthday, but it still either sucks or doesn't.

So going into the month, I thought it was going to be great. I seemed free. Things were working out for me. Easy breezy, right? Wrong.

I go into the month and right there and then the almighty school system decides to rain down its unbelieveable amonts of stuff to do. Homework. Projects. Tests. Overwhelming.

It also didn't help that I was sick for most of the time. I looked like shit for half the month. I smiled at people and told them I was doing great, but really I was dieing on the inside. THIS is my tunnel.

Then, some crazy thing started happening. I thought it was quite unhealthy at first; too confusing and emotional to comprehend. For some appearent reason, I couldn't get him out of my head. He would just.. appear out of no where in my thoughts. I guess I was scared. This sort of thing never really happened before to me. Sure, I liked a guy before, but it was never this.. intense.

So, like any sane person, I tried to block the thoughts out. And it worked.. for a day! Everything I did, said or thought about would link back to him. It was Insane! I thought I was going completely mental!!

But after a little, I started to like it.

In some insane way, it was keeping me sane. The "what if" question always appeared in my mind. What if i talked to him more? What if I told him I liked him? What if he liked me back? And this became my light.

Of course, with my luck, the next day I was moved right beside him in one of my classes. I think it was then I realized how great he really was. He was(is), a great-looking guy (I mean SEXY ), so nice, hilarious and an all around sweetheart.

And now I just want to tell you Luke I LOVE YOU!! I'm super lucky to have you! I still feel like this is a dream and if it is, I hope i never wake up from it. Thanks for being my light, love !!

Now I'm going to crawl into bed and smile until I fall asleep. *sigh*

~M-W



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